new year with new resolutions.

there's so much i wanna achieve this yr.
sometimes i wonder if i'm too ambitious or smt?

although it might seem like a really clear str8 path for the near future..
but still kinda feel lost.

i would wonder..
where really do i belong to?
what kinda talent do i have? (been watching too much heroes)
which kinda career path is suitable for me?
how do u determine if its the right track?

long and hard i'll think...
but to no avail.

......miSs mE?.......
1:24:00 AM

its a bad habit of mine...
only coming to you when i feel so alone in the world.
you can be relieve that i'll be talking to you more often these days.
my lovely blog.

these days i've been keeping my schedule real tight..
this way, the only thing i yearn for is sleep.
my mind will be too tired from straying elsewhere.
there are pros and cons to it.


it was nice to have been out of the shell for that short while..
to be able to truely voice what you feel
to be able to show you real emotion
to be able to bare your heart out.

somehow, i feel that i am going back into my shell of comfort again.
less vocal, less interested in everything.
more self-centered, more fearful of the surroundings.
aferall, thats where i belong all these years.


Anyways,
work today was kinda lax..
more of teaching than doing requests.
Luckily one of the system wasnt functioning too well..
hahaas.
Can focus more on queries than rushing everything through :)

Alrighty!
time for bed.

......miSs mE?.......
4:56:00 AM

everyday i still ask myself what i did wrong.

......miSs mE?.......
1:19:00 AM

Scared once again.

where can i hide?


i'm so tired of masking..
wad choice do i have?

......miSs mE?.......
6:04:00 PM

its been such a long time ever since i need to blog.

many things have changed.
so have i.

i think that i'm really stupid.

its only after i met up w my frens dat it struck me hard that...
u are not serious.
i shld've known when it was right in my face.

now i guess u ALL agree that i'm stupid yet again.


hahahahahas.

to think that i was gullible enough to believe in you and actually thought that you cared.

......miSs mE?.......
3:27:00 AM

well-oh-well....
All good things come to an end doesnt it?

gonna be in stolt for the last week
& moving on to the finance industry.

i like the structure of the company..
the way we work,
and of course the colleagues around.
ups & downs there were but ultimately i'll still miss these ppl!
totally enjoyed myself at the D&D, drinking sessions, vertical marathon etc

its a pity its not my field of work :(

aye!!
so enjoy it whilst it last!! i shall have fun the upcoming week!
hahahahs.

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kinda hooked on golf these days..
went down on tues & wed after work,
was supposed to head down on fri
but i was too shagged out from gym on thurs to do anything else so headed home!

seems kinda old & useless now :(

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it seems the world is real small...
hahahs.
went for my fren's 21st bdae chalet,
got to know a few ppl from SP, researchers in NUH
and also....

we were in the midst of playing bridge..
the convo went:

me: are u studyin in SP too?
ying er: nope, i'm on exchange programme... studying in Uni of MElb.
me: Ohhh... so do u know anyone from chem engine? in the 3rd/4th yr?
ying er: hmmm... wads her name?
me: Nita? Juanita Darmawan?***
ying er: hmm.. dont think so.
me: okay :) have u gone thru spore's education at any point of time?
ying er: yeah! i used to be from st.marg's pri sch :)
me: OMG!!! are u serious?!?!?!?

hahahaahhahas.
there my long lost pri sch fren!!!
intern-ing as a Med student in NUH :)

cant wait to meet up again girlie!


*** On another note...... MISS JUANITA DARMAWAN!!!
arent u honoured that i mentioned you ?? *winks!
u better get back soon for meet-ups :)

......miSs mE?.......
1:21:00 AM

gosh!

i hate sunburn.
my two arms are damn scaly now....
DISGUSTING!

went down for mountbatten training after a long period of slack.
productive it was.
thats wad training is all about aint it?

gone for a canoeing session 2 weeks ago..
i thought it was quite interesting :)
gotta learn to control the direction though
going S-course!
hahas.

had my first golf lesson last night.
i'm totally addicted!
so fun :)


we want MORE! we WANT MORE!

......miSs mE?.......
9:40:00 AM